I've thought that...

I've thought that I don't mind about you much anymore.. I don't miss you much anymore...

In fact it's cheating myself.. 

Time will maybe help me to fade you out of my mind.. Maybe...

Take good care Ysabella.. I wish you enjoy your summer with family much.. 

Tired

I am feeling so tired.. I feel like to giv up.. Feeling the power of distance, reality and culture... Is it going to end soon? Is it fruitless? Or it's not even rooting, with a seed planted in wrong soil...

I'll just keep my greetings... It's up to you, not me... Again, the only window I have it's still the same... The only person In my heart, she is still the same... Since we've meet, since the past two winter...

And there, where is my point

It's the Qing Ming festival today.. Since grandpa had passed away I haven't got a chance to do cleaning at his "house" yet.. Dad is doing every year though.. 

By the way I've just got back from Taiwan.. It's a business trip for company training.. Training was bored but night market was fine.. But then something is different that disturbed my heart.. And only a few person that I care about that would disturb my mind or emotion.. This time or recently it's just she, Akira Ysabella.. What is going through her these days, I really don't know cause she don't really like to share with me.. But I'm sure something had happened.. Why? Because she is acting so cool.. Like an iceberg.. I don't know if it's me or what.. Anyway I'm trying.. Like I always do.. But pushing too hard brings huge negative impact so I am trying my best.. 

I really hope that I'm just walking distance to her location.. With that I could do more.. Not just a few cold emotionless sentences..

But everytime, I'm only able to hope.. When could I translate my talks into action.. I felt I'm a failure when I couldn't act what I've told.. I'm sorry..

Halfway

It's half way of your finals… I can't wait you to complete it cos I wana tell you I'm coming to Japan soon! My Taiwan trip too had been confirmed which is 30th and return by 3rd.. 

Anyway glad to know you had been doing well these days :) 

Hope the remaining days you will be doing better and better! Keep the high spirit and just do it! Good luck!