And there, where is my point

It's the Qing Ming festival today.. Since grandpa had passed away I haven't got a chance to do cleaning at his "house" yet.. Dad is doing every year though.. 

By the way I've just got back from Taiwan.. It's a business trip for company training.. Training was bored but night market was fine.. But then something is different that disturbed my heart.. And only a few person that I care about that would disturb my mind or emotion.. This time or recently it's just she, Akira Ysabella.. What is going through her these days, I really don't know cause she don't really like to share with me.. But I'm sure something had happened.. Why? Because she is acting so cool.. Like an iceberg.. I don't know if it's me or what.. Anyway I'm trying.. Like I always do.. But pushing too hard brings huge negative impact so I am trying my best.. 

I really hope that I'm just walking distance to her location.. With that I could do more.. Not just a few cold emotionless sentences..

But everytime, I'm only able to hope.. When could I translate my talks into action.. I felt I'm a failure when I couldn't act what I've told.. I'm sorry..