White valentines

It's the white valentine, I've hope so much to giv you a box of sweet chocolate... I've hope so much that at least you have a little bit feeling as mine... 

I've hope so much, for you to be happy..

Looks like I've always did the other way round... Pissing you off and telling me to shut up for so many times...I've did something that always upsetting you...

And next week it's your finals... I hope it doesn't disturb your studies... I wish you to graduate with flying marks.. With superb result, make dad and ur family proud.. And I'll be proud for you too... Although i doesn't stand a place for it.. But I do feel proud for your achievements..

It has been such a long time, not having ur early greetings... Without those, it's a bad start of a day... I'll bear with it... It's my problem after all... All the time I've told you, I'm missing you, it's true... I've been checking phone constantly for your notifications... When I missed it I feel so bad, I've missed a chance to talk... Everytime it's important to me... 

Today I'd purposely not texting you, not liking your post... I hope with that I won't distract your attention, or maybe I never so it's effortless.. It's good to know you are happy with chocolates from dad and sensei.. Glad to know that.. Sincerely, I wish u the best to be happen in ur life..

The great happiness, most blissful lady to be in the world.. And I wish that's you... Happy white Valentine's Day! To you the sweetest, kindest, beautiful, elegant, cute lady ever.. Akira Ysabella..

I'm so sorry, for all bad things, negative emotions that I've brought to you... I'm sorry...

Why?? Why???

I don't know... How and why is this happening... Is the ignore the phone made this happen? I just wanted u to have rest earlier so your body could get enough rest.. I just wanted u to be fit and health... I just wanted you to be fine...

:(((

I've tried to suppress my feeling that how hurt that you are ignoring, how much that I've missing you...

It's hard.. It's tough...

Because you meant so much to me... Akira..

Chinese New Year eve

It's the festival of the year! Today most of the Chinese family would gather and prepare a huge dinner together... It's not your tradition but I hope it will be lol

Progress is moving quite good recently... Especially during the lovebirds day, Valentine's Day! It's so sweet when I switch on my phone just when I've arrive klia! Especially the pen it's written with "endless love" I hope it does mean it lol :)

May the sweetness of our relationship keeps and growing, I'm waiting, just for you to graduate... Else if I can't I'll split my words soon lol

Ganbarimas my lady!

For you to be

It's fine, I will be ok...

As long as you are happy with it.

At this moment I'm still missing you so much.. 

I wanted to be part of your life, I've wanted you too be part of my life.

Not a bit, partially or quarterly.. But most of it..

I had been hoping, wishing, praying and imagining it will be happen soon...

I've been holding on myself, not to disturb u much these two days... Probably too much of interacting caused u feeling disgusted about me... I don't know...

I've been open, holding no secrets from me myself, except that I've really strong love feeling towards you... I might keep that till you graduate, or forever... 

I've been acting incrediblely cheesy for such a time, guess that had been a clear hint of what I'm feeling... But I just don't know how, when the Cold War begin... I just don't know how should I cheers u back.. I just don't know how, to let you to be open towards me...

Maybe I'm not the person that you will be open freely.. But what I could do is just continueingly being existing in somewhere I could... Till one day, when u decided to have no connection with me, which is surprisingly easy with just few tap..

That's my disadvantage... However... Sigh...

Coincidentally, the radio is singing..

You're beautiful

You're beautiful

You're beautiful, it's true

There must be an angel with a smile on her face

When she thought up that I should be with you

But it's time to face the truth

I will never be with you